Well... it's been awhile.
So, the update is: I'm back.
I am back because I know that I need to live my life awake... not just sleeping through the days hoping and dreaming that things will get better some day. I need to be awake to the possibilities, awake and engaged to make a difference. I am awake to the spiritual battle, the physical battles, the mental battles. I am awake and trying my best to stay AWAKE!
So, what am I doing to stay awake:
1) I am logging my food in My Fitness Pal because it's a great app and seems to keep me aware of my calories and choices.
2) Reading my Bible every day in attempts to stay connect to the "vine" so I can actually possess the fruit of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self control. Journaling what I am learning in my reading/prayer time.
3) Using my bike:0) Because I like my bike and I think it's fun!
This is my awakening.
Too many days spent being in the fog of depression and no motivation. I want to do this because:
1) I need to feel the joy in my heart. It's there, its always there, I just had not felt joy or one ounce of happiness for years... walking around like a zombie... consuming the joy of others and leaving them as zombies too... no more.
2) For my family. They need me to be joyful and hopeful. I need to lead them in this example.
3) For my faith to be increased.
4) For my life to be LIFE.
That is all... for now!
Products I am using:
- Advocare Fruit Punch Spark
- Advocare Meal Replacement Shakes Dark Chocolate
- Larabars - Cherry Pie (bc they are amazing!)